Firsts in the Future
The first of anything is always worse than the other attempts. First day on a job, first apartment, first car, the first time you wear a new pair of jeans. So, why should this be any different? I’ve never just sat down to write. Im not even doing that now really, I just found some down time at my place of work and got a little curious of what would come out of whatever this is. It won’t be perfect, but I can only go up from here.
I am questioning my future a lot lately. I graduate from college with my degree in about two months so, I just keep telling myself that this feeling of not knowing what to do is normal. I have friends who are already receiving job offers and I have had none. I have friends who already have jobs lined up and I don’t. I have friends who are going straight into graduate school and are not focused on finding a place right now while I feel defeated and need a break from school. I have friends who don’t worry about what they are doing next because they live with parents who provide for them even through adulthood while I moved out of my parents, granted a little sooner than I should have.
I want my first career job to be great. I want to excel in interviews I go through and have to fight off offers I receive. I want to lose sleep over trying to decide which offer I should accept. I know it’s only October and that I should really just wait until after Thanksgiving to really start looking. I still get a little discouraged when I scroll through indeed. I am placed in a small district currently and I feel like I made a mistake pushing for a smaller district. I had it in my head that if I was placed in a small district, they would get to know me better and I could have a better chance of getting an opportunity to work in the same spot following graduation. Now, I feel like I should have pushed for a larger district so that there would be more opportunities.
Graduating in a fall semester is always rough for people in my field. I am getting a degree in education and our school years begin in August and end in June. That doesn’t leave a lot of immediate openings or opportunities for December graduates. I am a little hopeful though. I feel as though I am knowledgable in ways that can land me the job I have been dreaming about since I could talk.
I have always wanted to be an educator. When I was younger I would often volunteer to help my younger siblings with homework, I would beg my moms friends to hire me as a babysitter, I would sit in on parent/teacher conferences for my siblings and pretend I was in school and when I got older, I paid close attention to what was being said. I have always had this feeling that I belong in education. Come December, I hope that these feelings can be seen through interviews and discussions about future opportunities. The first day on a job is always the worst but, everyday is better than the last in education. Learning is limitless.
